We don't need another pretty boy singin' pretty songs
Fake country boys, doin' country all wrong
Need another Haggard, or a Johnny Cash
Somebody chewin' 'baccer, and whippin' ass
I need a preacher, I need a savior, how about y'all?
Can I get an outlaw?
-Ryan Upchurch-‘Can I get a Outlaw?’
What is a rebel exactly? Is it someone who doesn’t identify with what others might consider normal? It is hard to define anything these days without someone causing a fuss. Yeah things aren’t exactly what they used to be. 20 years ago if you had a problem with someone, you could just go to the back of a building and settle things that way. Now if you tried to do that, there would be countless lawsuits and police charges filed. Maybe that is why the world is a mess since you can’t just go out and beat the shit out of anyone. No we have people who are offended by being called a name, but those same people aren’t afraid to hurl insults. Which is it going to be cupcake? Words either hurt us or they don’t. You can go on acting like 2020 is the worst year ever, but I am fairly certain the ghosts from the pasts would disagree with you. It is all about perspective as people have different experiences and points of view. Maybe if people took this into consideration, we wouldn’t be so screwed up. So why Haggard, or Cash? Perhaps they were some of the toughest sons of bitches in music during their time. They had an edge about them which caused some people to look up to them. You can’t even try to put them into the glam hair or skinny jeans bands, but you would put them with music that some people called ‘garbage’. Music is like wrestling, there are a lot of fakes out there which most can’t tell the difference. Hell just look at ‘The Woah Down’ Chingy featuring Meg & Tyler and you would have people believe that is country rap just like James Ceno might be viewed as a ‘hardcore’ wrestler. It just doesn’t make any sense. Then again, nothing in 2020 makes any sense. Everyone is an expert now and it isn’t surprising that is why things have gone to shit. Maybe 2021 will be better, but the world needs an outlaw even if they don’t know it. The question is, where are these outlaws?
Stapled shut, inside an outside world and I'm
Sealed in tight, bizarre but right at home
Claustrophobic, closing in and I'm
Catastrophic, not again
I'm smeared across the page, and doused in gasoline
I wear you like a stain, yet I'm the one who's obscene
Catch me up on all your sordid little insurrections,
I've got no time to lose, and I'm just caught up in all the cattle
Fray the strings
Throw the shapes
Hold your breath
Listen!
I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
BEFORE I FORGET THAT!
I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
BEFORE I FORGET THAT!
-Slipknot-'Before I forget'
Baltimore
August 5 2018
What should have been a sure victory and one that many had predicted a change in title picture, iy instead turned out to be a nightmare. Against all probability, Melody Bloody Lennox managed to defeat Tweeder. It wasn’t supposed to happen this way. Tweeder was, no is the better wrestler, but nothing adds up. How did that happen? Tweeder has some suspicions , but he won’t go public with it. Jason Bridges and the rest of The Network couldn’t stand him despite Tweeder owning 10% of Carnage. The blood, sweat, tears, and numerous events took part in promoting Carnage didn’t seem to matter to them. They didn’t seem to get it, but Carnage is home. Just like Joey Jordison being kicked out of Slipknot, a band he helped start, so too was Tweeder being kicked out of his own home. It wasn’t the way he wanted to go, but it had to be done. All the bullshit behind the scenes was ruining it for him. He had had enough. Tweeder had represented Carnage at OWF and brought back ½ of their tag team titles. . He had gone to OWC and brought back their World title. Union Battleground saw their World title show up in Carnage. Hell, Tweeder had a better showing at Lord of Trios than Paragon, whom Jason Bridges wanked off to.
As Tweeder was leaving the Carnage Arena, it was clear to all that he was leaving for good this time. Even his tag team partner from OWF, Amy Jo Smyth, Rogan MacLean, and Lucy Wylde couldn’t stop him. He just kept walking, ignoring the present and pondering about the future. Is this how he really wanted to go out? Even Sinc Mercier had his chance to go out the way he wanted. No, if Tweeder was going to get screwed consistently then it was time to go. There would be no send off match where Tweeder could say goodbye and if they wanted Tweeder gone, he would leave, but thanks to owning 10% of Carnage, he could adjust his contract to suit him so if there was an opportunity that made sense to return. Even if Jason Bridges or whoever was in charge wanted to challenge the validity of the contract, they would be stuck in the court system for years. Tweeder had nothing, but time so he could wait this out as long as needed. Maybe there would be a chance to have a send off match in the future, but it would go with how Tweeder would want it to go. It wasn’t a retreat, but fall back to regroup for then strike when the time is right. Right as Tweeder gets to the door, Krya tries to stop him. Good old Krya, whom Tweeder has battled with many times. Of all the people who tried to stop Tweeder, she is probably the best that knows him.
Kyra: Hey, Tweeder... Where the hell are you going?
Tweeder: I’m sick of the bullshit Kyra.
Kyra: So you're just quitting?
Tweeder: Bloody right I am. No matter what I do and what I have done for this company, I keep getting shit on.
Kyra: So fuck your little 'code of honor' huh? I thought that's why you came back in the first place but now when things get hard you're just gonna run away.
Tweeder: I did try to bring a bit of honor back, but it seems honor and integrity don’t have a place in Carnage anymore.
Kyra: Wait, what? That doesn't sound like the Tweeder I know... What's really going on?
Tweeder: I’m just tired of trying to fix things.
With that said, Tweeder walked out of the Carnage Arena leaving behind his ‘home’. There would be no farewells as it isn’t what he wanted. He wanted to leave on his own terms. In a way he achieved that, but not how he pictured it. This part of his life was now over.
Fade to black
Dallas Texas
June 2 2020
Only one phrase can describe what is going on: ‘This sucks more than anything that has ever sucked before’. Several years ago, The Dragon’s Den was open as a way to help introduce people who might be interested in the art of professional wrestling. While most of the people who entered The Den never made it to the ‘major league’ so to speak, it did help the smaller promotions around the country repopulate. At the same time, those who entered The Den were able to gain confidence which they never had before. In a way, it is similar to the rebirth of Cobra Kai, but without the idea of no mercy. Financially it wasn’t the most profitable business venture, but it was never meant to be. It was a way to give back to the wrestling community and help people. Thanks to Covid-19, everything came to a halt and that is when Tweeder decided to pull the plug. While it pained Tweeder to do it, he knew anyone dreaming to become a professional wrestler, they were going to struggle finding any work as local promotions were closing their doors left and right. It is something that can’t be helped. No one was safe and even some of the big name companies around the world were struggling. Any money that was saved for a rainy day was being used just to survive. Tweeder had a feeling that things were only going to get worse and sure enough they did.
As Tweeder handed over the building keys, his mind began to wonder what was next. Sure he still had money saved up and was still receiving a check from Carnage Wrestling where he owned 10% as a minority owner, but he wasn’t comfortable just sitting around doing nothing. However, with most countries banning flights to and from the US, it isn’t like he could go home to Scotland to see what opportunities were there. There were some rumbling about Chaos 100 being a Supershow and there might be an opportunity to come back for a special appearance even if it was to wave to The Legion, have a few Haggis tacos, collect some money, and leave. While some might see this as an easy pay day and they would accept it, this wasn’t Tweeder’s style. If he was going to show back up to the Carnage Arena, he wanted to make sure it was for a damn good reason. Tweeder wanted to give something back as a way to thank Carnage for asking him to return even if it was just for one night. No, it would take a lot for Tweeder to even consider showing up. He wasn’t even planning on sending a video to get people to remember him or bring up the past.
Fade to black
Baltimore
Monday, August 28th hours before Chaos 99
News Chaos 100 being a Supershow was now confirmed. Plans were being made to make this one of the biggest shows in the history of Carnage. Apparently all the titles are going to be on the line and some of the talk on the internet was Jack Michaels was going to return. When Tweeder heard that, he could hardly believe it. Based on Twitter, Jack had retired and was doing some other ventures. Jack at least had some sense of not tainting his legacy by continuing his wrestling career. Tweeder knew too many people who kept coming back over and over when they had no business doing so. They wanted to cling onto whatever they had left because they wanted to relive the glory days of when they had the top spot. Tweeder remembers one of those types all too well as Gemini in True Honor Wrestling was such a person. Always bringing up what he did in 2009 in 2012 like he was still the top dog. Truth is, he had already been passed by and he didn’t realize it. No, Tweeder wouldn’t be coming back for Chaos 100. If Jack Michaels came in for it, let him take the spotlight and have people make the remarks that he should have stayed retired. Tweeder didn’t need that shit in his life.
Where are you?
And I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick, strange darkness
Comes creeping on, so haunting every time
And as I stare, I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?
Stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me, you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Don't waste your time on me, you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
-Blink 182-'I miss you'
Fade to black
Carnage Arena: Chaos 99
Minutes before the Main Event is about to end and in the mind of Tweeder.
I am content with where life has taken me. Do I really need to do this? What is going on? Why do I feel like an asshole for not considering this? Is this something I want? I have never really cared about what people thought of me so I do I all of a sudden care? Hell, let’s just go for it and see what happens. You don’t have to decide anything yet, but the clock is ticking. Any moment now and what the fuck? Trent Steel is the new Chaos Champion? This is going to complicate things. Just remember to soak it all in this. I may not get another shot at doing this. Might as well make it worth the time it took to get here. I am home.
Tweeder is seen walking to the balcony of the Carnage Arena lighting up a cigarette. C$J is doing his rant against Trent Steel completely unaware of what is about to happen. Hell, no one knows what is coming. It is Shock Value at it’s finest. The riffs of Dimebag Darrell’s guitar starts followed by Rex and on the bass and Vinnie Paul on the drums. Phil Anselmo’s vocals kick in as the spotlight from the arena flashes around looking for someone.
Can't you see I'm easily bothered by persistence
One step from lashing out at you...
You want in to get under my skin
And call yourself a friend
I've got more friends like you
What do I do?
Fade to black
Originally I had planned to stay away from the crazy world known as wrestling. There was no need for someone like me. I can only guess why I had decided to return to Carnage several years ago. Maybe it was because I thought they needed my help as they were getting a primetime slot on the old OWF Network. When I think about it though, I don’t really remember why. Maybe because at this point in my life I am tired of the politics in wrestling just like I am tired of politics in this country or any country. It is being run by people who have no idea what it is like to spend a day in my shoes. I never thought I would see the day when I just quit and didn’t plan on returning to wrestling. Before when I left, I would say never say never as I would keep the door open if the right situation came along. However on August 5, 2018 when I left the Carnage Arena, I honestly had no intention of ever coming back.
I had imagined I would fill my time traveling, running my business, and some other ventures. I did that and marched to my own drum enjoying life. I even managed to go on a few safaris which was fun and I highly recommend it. About the only thing from Carnage aside from The Legion I missed was Taco Tuesday and getting the haggis special. Life for me was enjoyable not having a thing to worry about. I was a free man who could do whatever I wanted. No more pencil pushers who had no clue how the wrestling business work telling me to change who I was. They never saw the bigger picture and were trying to make Beef Wellington when they only had corned beef spam. Don’t get me wrong, both have their advantages, but you work with what you have. Besides, maybe Beef Wellington is disguised as corned beef for a reason. The point is, people who had no business running Carnage were only it for themselves. They wanted the glitz and glam so they could become part of the show or further their career once they took credit for what happened.
What I did not expect was to be dragged back into this mess. I still have a few connections at Carnage and when they told me about Trenton Steel having a list for C$J to contact, I had to see the list for myself. Imagine my surprise when I saw the names of Freedom Kid, Phoenix Matsuda, Brian Blood, Chaos, Jet Somers, Phantasm, Eden Morgan, Jesse Jamester, and Melody Lennox on this list. A fairly interesting list as it has people from the company formerly known as OWF and UGWC. One could say you are a man with a keen eye for talent. I had to scroll down even further before I saw my name. This peaked my interest Trenton as it would always take something special for me to even consider a one off match. Before I decided I would accept your challenge, I had to make sure I was doing it for what I thought were the right reasons. You know, not being the power hungry git who just won’t let go. You’ve seen those types before, right Trenton? I had read Jack Michaels was going to use a rematch clause for the World title and it pissed a few people off apparently. The more I thought about it, but the more I didn’t want to be THAT GUY. Why ruin what I have already built up? It took some time and it wasn’t until the last minute that I decided, why not do it. I have nothing to lose and it will make The Legion happy. I’m not like Jack Michaels who decided after so long to activate a rematch clause. It is just circumstances that brought us here. Hell the fact Steve Matthews voluntarily agreed to have his title shot that he rightfully earned proves this. Maybe Stevie is one of the few people who truly understand what this match is about. That fact the Chaos title is on the line just adds something extra.
I do want to address the list you created and I do apologize if some names are missing. I threw the original list I had away and these are some of the names I remember calling. Has anyone seen Freedom Kid since OWF closed? Anyone? I know he had a daughter, but she has disappeared as well. Maybe she changed her name...again. It kind of makes sense that C$J couldn’t get in contact with him. Hell I couldn’t even reach him. Maybe someone should put his picture on a milk carton or something. Phoenix Matsuda is a bit too busy running his business empire in Japan. Remember when Monarchy of Anarchy went to Japan in 2018? Phoenix helped run things, but he wanted to keep his name out of it for legal and business reasons. So it makes sense why he declined your offer. Jesse Jamester is another one of those ‘have you seen this person’ from OWF. I don’t know why you had him on the list. If I recall correctly, he flaked a few times around the time I was preparing for the Pool of Blood tournament which he too was supposed to be part of. He never showed up. Maybe he was worried about getting his hat dirty or something. Maybe that is the reason why he probably would accept your offer, but then no show.
Brian Blood while he had his heart set on accepting your challenge, I just couldn’t allow him to do it. He was one of those who would always take a beating and keep coming back for more. He was like Oliver Twist as he would go ‘Please sir, I want some more’. He would get more alright as he traveled around the country, he was used as a whipping boy. When I saw him, he walked like he was 90, talked like he was 83, and smelled like he was dead. Yet he still had a bit of eagerness about him. I don’t blame him, but it wouldn’t be the right thing to do. I asked Jet Somers and he said he was too busy doing his hair. You think I am kidding? That is what he really told me. Scooter for some reason prefers to do a Travis Pierce, but unlike Travis, Scooter has talent. Oh and I believe he has a match or two coming up so he also declined on those reasons. Eden Morgan is married and there is a good chance she has a few matches of her own with her husband on a daily basis. Honestly, I am surprised they haven’t killed each other yet, but she has known Gabriel for some time. Oh and she couldn’t get the time off from UGWC according to the interwebs. This is the more logical reason.
Finally, there was my name. C$J never did try to contact me. Only he knows why, but honestly, I feel insulted. Why was I at the bottom of the list? Meh, what does it matter now. The match is set and it is a good thing Carnage is on one of those channels you have to pay extra for. Otherwise, this match would be banned worldwide. You think I hate you Trenton and want some sort of revenge when you beat me at Chaos 58. What good will that do me? I look at Chaos 100 as something special, but nothing will be more special to me that the very first Carnage show, Underground and how we were the misfit toys from the Island of Misfit Toys proved people wrong over and over. No, Trenton, you had my name on your little list because you need me. Sure you have uneasy alliances with JC and Will Prydor who know you more than most people, but they are the types who disapprove of your craziness unless it suits their purpose.
Maybe I am on the list because you envy me. The fact I have the ability to walk away when I want and return if I so choose to. Sure I had offers to join a few other places, but I turned them all down for the simple reason...Carnage is my home. People like Jason Bridge, C$J, Ken Davison, and the list goes on, are really just my tennents. They are in Carnage because I allow them to be. They might be a necessary evil if you will, but they are just like you Trenton. None of you see the bigger picture in life. You don’t look at the home you live in and think, ‘You know what, I think I am going to allow someone to come in here and arrange things to how they want it’. No Trenton, they are renters, just like you. I do find you more tolerable than some of the others and who knows, maybe if I had joined OWF, we could have had an uneasy alliance. Instead Trenton, you are facing someone who has nothing to lose and everything to gain. I am not doing this match for me, but for your Trenton. I am the drug that is causing you to ask yourself, was the first time a fluke? I need to try this to be sure. I am going to indulge you this time Trenton as you seem to hold Chaos 100 as a special night. It will be something that will cause everyone to blister twister when it is all said and done. I just want you to remember one thing Trenton...I am your judge. I am your jury. I am your executioner. Welcome to my world of Ultra-Violence.