Eli Goode sits alone in a dark room. A single light shines on him. His clothing is plain, white shirt and blue jeans. He looks into the camera with no positive expression. He has no emotions. Every word he speaks has no emotions.
“Sometimes… words are the only things you have. You can’t really show with your actions how you truly feel. So… I only have words for you.
See, over the past few weeks, nothing has been going my way. I didn’t get a Baltimore City Championship match. I didn’t get a Chaos Championship match. Hell, there’s no way I’m getting a World Championship match; so now, all I can do is have a regular six-man tag team match.
Is this the sort of match that I want? No, I want to be going up against Trent Steel for the Chaos Championship; however, based on what’s happening now, it appears as though I wouldn’t have even gotten that match at Chaos 100. No, that still would’ve been Tweeder vs Trent. Well, maybe I could’ve convinced C$J that a triple threat match would’ve been better. Haha, yeah, it would’ve been better with us three.
So what do I do now? That’s the looming question for me. Where does Eli Goode go from here? He’s stuck in this weird limbo where the only thing he can do is wait until his next opportunity. But… what if I don’t wanna wait? What if I wanna go up against Ken? What if I want that World title match right now? It won’t happen. Even I can see I haven’t done enough to earn even a number one contender’s match.
No, now, I’m stuck in a match that is ultimately irrelevant to what I want. I’m stuck in a match that is meant to be a showcase of six talented competitors. No, we can’t put you all in singles matches, but we can put you in one, big clusterfuck of a match. Yeah, that’s what I think about this match. It’s going to be one big clusterfuck. But, Eli, you say… You should be honored to be put in the ring with five other hungry men.
I could give two shits about the five other men, and one of those men, Harry Hampton, I’ve beaten before. Why should I care that I’m his partner? Harry, you were a champion. You should be the one going up against Steve Matthews, not the chicken shit Alex Winter. Hell, you should be in a title match. But you’re here. And I know what you’re thinking too. I should just shut my damn mouth. I’m in this match too, but that’s the thing Harry, I’ve experienced greatness. I’ve experienced what it’s like to be at the top, and you haven’t. Now, I’m stuck with you as a partner. Goody for me. I’m just jumping for joy. I can’t wait to see you hopping around telling people to, ‘Hae a guid dae.’ I can’t wait to see you not take this match seriously and just flirt with Terra Skye.
Who’s my other partner? Oh, that’s right, Jon ‘Dark and Edgy’ Willis. Look, I’m happy that you’re on a road to recovery, but don’t… don’t try to get me into that bullshit. Yeah, I’m at a real low right now, but I don’t need you trying to fix me. I know your types too well. You get your partners into a corner, try to pep them up, and end up doing nothing to actually help them. You just constantly keep them down until you’re the star. You fake caring about people until you’ve finished with them, and then you move the FUCK ON!”
A hint of anger exits Eli’s voice. He takes in multiple deep breaths. He tries to slow his anger down, but it boils still in his stomach. He can only think about one person... Jack Michaels. He closes his eyes and continues talking.
“Jon, Harry, I’m going to be your partner for Chaos 100, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to like you. I’ve gotten your calls about how you both want to try and steal the show. You both can do that, but I don’t care enough about you to try to do anything for you. When I get in that ring, I’m fighting for myself, and no one else.”
He adjusts how he is sitting and tilts his head slightly.
“Now I’m going to talk about my opponents. First up is Axton Gunn. God, that’s such a pretentious name. I mean your first name alone makes you sound like a failed rockstar, and then adding Gunn makes you sound like a douche. I just look at your face and I want to punch it. There is nothing about you that makes you likable to me, and I don’t even know if that’s what you’re going for. Your rockstar personality is going to get old fast, and it’s already old with me. If we get in the ring together, I’m going to make sure that you cry like a little baby bitch. I’m going to show you to your partners and force them to see you whimper in pain. You’ll stretch out to tag them, but it won’t happen. Axton, uh I hate that name so much, I’m going to make you wish you didn’t agree to this match. I’m going to knee the shit out of you and hope that you’re knocked out.
Next, we have Sebastian Hawke. I like your grit. You started out in backyard wrestling. I like that. It shows that you don’t care what happens to your body. Good, because I’m going to make that body suffer. I’m going to hope that I put you through more punishment than you did to yourself. Based on what I’ve read about you, you’re someone that doesn’t want people to tell you what to do. You don’t want a predetermined destiny. Well, this is your destiny. You’re going to get in the ring with me, and I’m going to make sure you feel pain. I’m going to make sure that you hurt. Look, you feel like someone I should respect, and I wish I could, but I don’t. I just see you as another competitor that has to fight me, and that’s all you are. You’re nothing more, and nothing less.
Finally, we have the de facto leader of their team I’m guessing, Dominick Strife. Dom, we’re going to have strife in this match. HA, see what I did there. I took your name and made a pun. HA, oh I’m the best. Seriously though, you’re someone that had a chance to be a first, but you failed. You failed to be the first Chaos Champion, and now I’m forced to team with him. Dom, and this is the same for your partners as well, this isn’t personal. This is business. I’m going into this match without wanting to do anything other than hurt you three, win the match, and walk out. Nothing more; nothing less. Sure, you’re probably going to try and restore some honor you lost weeks ago, but I don’t care. When we meet in the ring, I’m going to beat you, and I’m going to enjoy it.”
Eli stands up. He adjusts his shirt and looks directly into the camera.
“So this is a match, and it’s happening at Chaos 100. Do I wish I was doing something more prominent on the card? Yes, but what am I going to do? I can’t change anyone’s mind last minute. This is what I’m stuck with. Earlier, I was talking about potentially getting in the ring. I will get in the ring, but on my time. If either one of my opponents tries to tag me in, I’m going to ignore them. They’re not going o tag me in. I’m tagging myself in. When I feel ready to get in the ring, I’ll get in the ring.
God, this match really is going to be a clusterfuck. Oh well, someone’s gotta save this match, and it might as well be me. I’m the only one that can truly save this match because I am simply… That Damn… You know what? I’m finishing that sentence. I’m Goode.”
Eli walks out of frame and footsteps sound further away from the camera. The light turns off leaving the room in total darkness.
Post by The Madness Menagerie on Oct 11, 2020 15:42:45 GMT -5
Streets of downtown Baltimore
Sebastian’s head is buzzing. As he finishes his drink and deposits the cup in the trash, he exits Starbucks and takes the time to put his earphones in to drown out the noise of a bustling downtown area. It’s not that he’s intimidated by the noise, but he would rather listen to something else. Turning the volume just right, Sebastian proceeds to walk to his apartment. After celebrating his and Axton’s triumph over Dragon Lady and Adrienne, Sebastian had spent a healthy amount of time training. This afternoon was actually the first time he’d been outside of his apartment and not working out; it felt nice. Hell, it was even with his soon to be opponent, and from the looks of things, Sebastian walked away from the experience with a new friend. It was certainly refreshing and instantly gratifying that Jon wasn’t one to try to instantly rip out Sebastian’s windpipe on sight. His phone goes off and Sebastian’s eyes casually flicker to the screen on his phone, showing the most recent alert, a text from his father demanding he get home ASAP. With a roll of his eyes, Seb ignores the alert and continues making his way through the throng of people.
It wasn’t that Sebastian didn’t love his parents, he did. They WERE his parents and were responsible for gifting the world with Sebastian’s sense of humor and moderately ok looks. Over the years though, Sebastian found himself, he had no desire to follow in his father’s footsteps and the few times he was able to get out of the house to a friend’s, he always found himself fascinated by fathers that actually treated their sons with love and respect. Sebastian could only imagine how bad it was for his mother right now… She never stood up for herself to begin with, but without Sebastian to provide a focal point for his father’s rage? The young Hawke shudders, but continues moving. His father was going to have to wait. He wasn’t anything more in Sebastian’s life than a massive shadow blocking him from seeing forward and now that Seb had finally had a taste of what life outside that shadow was like?
He wasn’t going to go back.
Sebastian’s Rental Car
Sebastian shouldn’t have been surprised. But, considering who he was and who he was currently sharing a rental car with, he could barely contain his excitement. After being sent the address of where Dom’s training area was, Sebastian couldn’t help but to do some clever Google mapping and saw exactly what he was getting into. Before he had departed to go pick up the car and Axton, Sebastian made SURE he had all of his old ring gear from his days as a backyard wrestling persona. The flashy stuff was fun for sure and who honestly didn’t love the effect of lights on sequined pants? The place they were going though? It didn’t NEED that. Pulling out his worn wrestling boots and trying them on, grateful they still fit, as well as his old wrestling tights, Sebastian felt that old flame rise up and start to engulf him again. Was this what people spoke about when trying to define passion?
The drive to Dom’s wasn’t long, but it followed a lot of long roads with nothing on them. Axton didn’t seem up to do much talking, so Seb stayed in his head as much as he could. He understood, from what he saw on Twitter and everywhere else, Ax had his emotions go through a meat grinder and was now trying to reform them into a patty of wholeness. He couldn’t imagine what his tag partner was going through and Sebastian still wasn’t sure where they stood presently as friends. Were they friends? Were they going to be friends? Did asking these questions to himself make Sebastian crazy or seem desperate?
Smiling awkwardly at the almost unconscious Ax, Sebastian feels a rush of relief float over him, realizing that the conversation was still all going on in his head. Finally finding the landmark he was told to look for, Sebastian turns and let’s his mouth hang open in awe as he parks. The area brings him back to training at a friend’s place, away from the noise and the crowds. A place that would allow him to focus on what he was doing in the ring, providing entertainment for anyone paying attention. There’s still something off about it though. He’s almost instantly grateful that Dom chooses that moment to walk up. Forever his “cool” self, Sebastian steps out of the car and smiles in what he hopes is an expression that conveys he knows what he’s doing.
“This is a step away from the ‘big city.’” Sebastian hopes he sounds like he knew what he was talking about. He was never good at first impressions.
"That it is. I'd still lock your doors though," Dom warns as he motions toward the car. "It looks like a nice neighborhood, but they'll still jack your radio. Then how would you listen to the new Skull Fractures album?"
Sebastian laughs lightly, relaxing at the joke. “Who says I need a stereo?” He looks back at Axton, still seated in the passenger seat, the rockstar's gaze focused elsewhere. While Dom goes to rouse the him Sebastian stays put, gently placing his gear bag beside him. Nevada wasn’t known for its foliage, so anything that wasn’t barely surviving crispy grass was a new experience for him. Breathing in the fresh air he can feel his spirit soar. This was exactly what he needed to feel like himself again. Being joined by Dom and Axton once again, Seb follows the duo as he takes in his surroundings, excited to see what comes next.
“...the ‘yard. Better name still pending of course.”
Sebastian’s voice caught in his throat as he took in the three local talents already there, the ring set up with a makeshift roof overhead to protect from the elements. “THIS is more like it!” Even to Sebastian, his voice sounds too eager and he vaguely notes to tone it down some.
"It ain't much, but what she lacks in grace she makes up for in total obscurity," Dom said.
“Sounds like my first ex.”
Sebastian smiles at Axton’s quip before blurting out everything that’s on his mind without really pausing to consider if it was a good idea or not. “No, no… This is exactly where I learned how to wrestle; backyard stuff. This is all SUPER familiar and it feels… Right, ya know? Like… If I’m going to refocus and get back to where I was having fun with this…” A dark look comes over his eyes as he picked his bag back up off the ground. “Anyways, this is great dude.” Sebastian chose to sink back into his head as Dom leads Sebastian and Axton to the back.
Hawke sighs to himself. He came into Carnage, so sure he’d be well received in the locker room. Had Twitter for all of twelve hours and already had his first match against a man who was resolved to forever call him, ‘kid.’ The word echoed in his head, a callback to past memories that Sebastian wasn’t willing to go toward right now. It was time to focus on getting back to where he WAS when he fell in love with being in the ring. Backstage drama be damned, this was what really mattered. Entertainment. Not just for Sebastian, but for everyone watching him work. He never thought he’d be tagging with anyone. But from secretly watching wrestling since he knew how, Sebastian could see the magic of a well oiled team versus that of people who just didn’t synch together. As they round a corner and come up to the actual training area, Sebastian casts a glance at both of his partners for Chaos 100. Maybe it was just his desire for something more than being cast into the seas of oblivion and jobbing, but he could feel the same potential for that magic.
‘Giddy’ would be an appropriate word to describe the feeling Sebastian feels bubbling up inside of him as Dom introduces Rob, Mike, and Danny. Flashing back to the people he learned the sport with, Sebastian barely hears Axton introduce him. Feeling it appropriate, Sebastian waves at the trio before asking Dom about changing. Sebastian could barely contain his excitement to get started. He isn’t sure what he said as he was departing, but quickly found the makeshift locker room and changed his clothes. He can feel a smile forming across his lips the more of his old gear he put on. He feels like himself again.
This is it… This is his turning point, and maybe he isn’t destined to be a singles competitor. But if he became part of one of the most entertaining teams Carnage, nay… The INDUSTRY has seen, he was going to give it his all.
Fort McHenry
Baltimore, MD
A breezy fall day and as the wind casually blows leaves around, Sebastian strolls up to the camera, already rolling.
“Hello! Uh… Sebastian Hawke here!”
He scratches his head and comes closer to the camera, picking it up from where it was propped and looks into the lens, “Ok, so that wasn’t as smooth and suave as I would have hoped to come across as, but hey, I try.” He winks and starts to stroll along the tourist path he’s on, waving at the few people that have started to recognize him. Spinning around, a smile on his face, Sebastian enjoys the warmth of the fun and the chill in the air that fall brought with it before once again addressing the camera in his hand.
“Sorry, favorite season and whatnot. There’s just nothing better than a day that’s perfectly balanced between sun and chill. That isn’t why I’ve brought you here today though Legion! No, I’m here today to address mine, Axton’s, and Dom’s opponents come the biggest anniversary Carnage has seen, Chaos 100!” He raises his arms in the air, his voice loud with excitement. He tones it down though and lowers his arms as he continues his stroll.
“Now, nothing against Jon Willis or Harry Hampton. They are both amazing competitors and people in their own right. Just this past week, I had a chance to sit down with Jon and not a sour note was exchanged between us, both of us agreeing that together, the six of us are going to steal the show! How’s THAT for sportsmanship?
No, I’d like to address the third member of that trio, Eli Goode.”
Sebastian smirks to himself as he digs his hands in the pockets of his jacket.
“A match isn’t a match without opposition, so first off I want to say that there’s nothing personal going on here. Eli is… An amazing talent for Carnage to have. I know, not everyone would exactly see things that way, but if you all don’t mind some time, I’ll tell you all about it.” Another wink as Sebastian walks by a monument, dedicated to a battle in 1814 when the fort fended off a British war fleet.
“Twenty-four hours Eli. One entire day. This fort withstood a massive fleet of British warships. Not just some puny fleet either. We’re talking ten ships, five bomb ketches, and a friggin rocket vessel. Imagine, standing here on the shore and having all of that coming at you, yet for centuries afterward, you’re still left standing, a testament to what a constitution that the gods and goddesses of Olympus would envy. Do you look in the mirror, Eli, and see that? How many years have you spent in Carnage, sweating, bleeding, FIGHTING for what you believe? Like a rocket of 1814 in the Battle of Baltimore, you soar higher and higher. You make it to the top even, earning your rightfully earned title match. You’ve made it to the top of the food chain in the Baltimore City division. Ultraviolent. Have you had a World Title opportunity lately Eli? Have you put in the years of service, proven your fortitude just enough… To be considered to lead this company into the next era?”
Sebastian shrugs and moves on down the path.
“Time will tell, but history isn’t your friend Eli. You make it to the top of each respective mountain and when it comes to gut check time, you fall. I don’t know if it’s timing, nerves, or the champion at the time is just that much better than you. I’m not the person to give that opinion, though I’m sure you can put on an instant classic. It’s like… Zeus himself came down from The Mount and gifted you, a mere mortal, with demi-god powers. Jack Michaels gave you a lot to handle when he gave you a spot in Paragon. I wasn’t here for the events but from what I watched on tv back home, you were at the top of your game. Now?”
Sebastian shrugs again.
“It’s like that old mythos with Icarus. The dude that got his wings and flew too close to the sun, scorching them to nothing, and having what I would assume is a dreadful fall back to Earth. Being on the outside looking in, I can only see you falling Eli. You scramble, you claw, and by the gods do you FIGHT. But when it comes to it? You’re no Fort McHenry.”
Sebastian turns toward the camera, pulling his blue tinted glasses down his nose.
“I did NOT mean that to sound that way! It’s just…”
Sebastian’s face flushes with color before he looks up and starts strolling again.
“I could throw out so many adages about the people not learning from their history are only doomed to repeat it. I could tell you that as one of the newest on the roster, I’m going to outshine you in every aspect of the way, the NEW Eli Goode. I could say all of these things Eli, but what good would that do either of us? Instead… I’ve decided to adopt a new outlook on life. A ruleset that points my direction in the storm that is my future. No matter what, I… No, together with Axton and Dom, WE will put the fun back into this sport, actually ENTERTAIN as opposed to get involved in all of the backstage drama and politics. Bosses… They all suck. I have yet to encounter one that I’ve actually liked. It isn’t worth it and look at the state of the locker room, it’s like a black cloud hangs over everyone’s head instead of looking to the future and asking themselves, ‘What can I do to have some fun for once?’”
Sebastian’s flashes a smile at the lens that could light up a room.
“So in the spirit of having fun with my flowering career here in Carnage Eli, Jon, and Harry; I only ask that you bring your best. You try and make me eat all of those words I just said because the more you try, the better this match will be. We have the ability, the six of us in that ring, to steal the show from the legends and champions alike. Let’s say that we make you look just that much better Eli, as you rocket your way back up those ranks to get as close to that sun as you can. Just, be careful you don’t get burned.”
Sebastian winks at the camera as he closes the lens and ends the promo.
Dom’s Training Facility
Sebastian had never had that much fun training. Axton and he already had a head start in working together, to feel each other out in order to start building a chemistry the likes of which have yet to be seen in Carnage. Of course adding Dom to the mix added to the equation and while the beginning of the impromptu “match” was rough, it eventually turned into a well oiled machine Sebastian wouldn’t have thought possible after just one session. With an official match coming up around the corner, at possibly the biggest anniversary event that Seb had ever been a part of, there was no telling what the future held for the trio; but Sebastian could picture in his mind’s eye all three of them having a good time along the way.
It was that thought that pushed Sebastian to step back and share the light of the ring with his new team members. Soon, the bumps became fewer and like masters of equilibrium, Sebastian, Axton, and Dom started to learn to enhance each other’s strengths and cover each other at their weakest. There was no way they’d lose at 100. None.
"I wasn't a big believer in makin' this a career. I just needed the money. But I guess you get addicted to the rush. Ain't nothing like it."
“And you look hella good doing it,” Axton commented with a sagely nod.
The conversation between the two brings Sebastian out of his reverie as he nods his head as quick as he could. Enthusiasm and exhaustion weren’t great bedfellows. “Practice makes better after all…” Seb could hear how tired he was with every word he got out, but he couldn’t feel better about it. He leaned his back against the closest ring post, enjoying the coolness against his bare skin and throwing his legs up on the apron.
“A gym is all well and good, but there’s no… Camaraderie there? Like… You go to a gym and you don’t give two shits about the people around you. Stuff like this?” He gestures to the empty ring, “THIS is where you learn the type of wrestler you are. Who you like to work with, who you don’t…”
Axton’s laugh interrupts Sebastian. “You always find out real fast who you don’t.” Sebastian smiles and agrees with a laugh of his own before continuing. “This just takes me back to days of getting ready for my first backyard show.” Sebastian smiles at the memory. Excited for his chance to finally get into the ring for his first match EVER, he ran in during a battle royal and tripped, nailing his chin on the apron and getting almost instantly flipped out after making it into the ring. “I flopped of course, but once you feel that… kick of adrenaline, there’s nothing like it. Find it hard to believe I’ve actually MADE it this far. There’s always been so many rumors of people who come from the same background, and just… never get into a place.”
“Any performance sport is at least half luck getting in, and knowing the right people,” the musician said, tossing Dom another cold bottle of water from the cooler.
Dom cracked open the new bottle as he nodded in agreement. “Yeah. Hell, that’s kind of how it is for any business. Depends on who you know.”
Sebastian falls silent, taking another drink of water and contemplating the landscape of ‘the business.’ There was something bugging him from the moment he signed his contract, something that almost robbed him of his goal of just coming in and having fun. “What I don’t like? Once everyone gets a taste of what it’s like to be out there, they forget how to have fun and do whatever they can to crush all remnants of the like out. Good guys face off against bad guys and that’s all well and good but… Everyone is SO serious in doing it. I started this to have fun, ya know?”
Sebastian again fell silent. He didn’t appreciate the condescending attitudes of the 'vets' around him. It was like they all forgot what it was like to be in their first ever professional company and frowned upon the people who dare come in and threaten their world views. Sebastian was sure that Mitch had his own reasons for being the unbelievable, condescending prick that he was to the young Hawke during his debut and after. Everyone applauded Sebastian for accepting the match and even surviving; which lasted a whole day before it was right back to being called 'kid' again. Proving oneself should ascend them beyond being called stupid pet names that implyed they were looked down upon, scum upon the Earth. Mitch called it a 'persecution complex.' Sebastian called it asking for respect and the other party being too involved in their own stuff to realize that they were being offensive.
It didn’t matter to bring it up though. Anything said about it now would be judged harshly by the leaders and examples in the company. Instead, lesson learned, Sebastian was ready to move on in Carnage. His tag team victory over Dragon Lady and Adrienne gave him a boost of confidence that he had been waiting on and made him feel almost as if his debut never happened, like he got a clean slate and he took every advantage of it. Dragon Lady not believing in his apology stung of course, but there was no sense in dwelling on it. Not everyone was going to like him and if they didn’t believe him to be genuine? That was on them.
There was booty to be kicked and fun to be had. Sebastian was psyched to prepare to do both. Snapping out of his reverie, Sebastian raises his bottle in salute to Axton claiming that, “everyone takes things too seriously.” Mitch Heart’s scowl will always be burned, etched, and branded into Seb’s mind’s eye and he shudders to himself. What he wouldn’t give for a chance to go back in time and shock the world.
“What if we could change that?”
Axton’s voice snaps Sebastian to attention as the young rockstar confirms to Dom that he did indeed, have an idea. As Seb listened, his smile grew wider and wider, his eyes growing bigger with every word that Axton said. He could feel the excitement, the energy of what was destined to be something great. Suddenly, Sebastian’s pipe dream of bringing a sense of fun to a sport lined with dark tidings wasn’t so far out of reach.
Post by Axton Gunn on Oct 11, 2020 17:05:56 GMT -5
Axton’s eyes, bright like mint, were reflected easily in the glass of the passenger side window; he had his forehead just barely resting against it as he passively watched the world roll by. He could feel the rumble of the car in his bones, and Sebastian’s warm presence at the wheel, but his thoughts were elsewhere.
His mind was roiling with the events of the past few weeks. It had been a chaotic tumble of mistakes, victories, anger and regret and sorrow and joy. It was hard to focus on anything but trying to make sense of the mess in his head… it was just that it felt like trying to separate spilled paint, rapidly running together into mud.
What the hell kind of picture was he trying to paint here in Baltimore, anyway?
Back in LA, he already had a reputation. People expected certain things from him… words, actions, the lot of it. He’d thought that here, in a brand new city in front of a brand new audience, he could try to be something else. Maybe even something more honest, more real than he was back home. It wasn’t that any part of his public face was fake--it was very much a true image of himself--but he only ever let them see the good.
Everything bad, he kept hidden away from their prying eyes. Everything vulnerable, he kept protected from their greedy hands. He’d thought that here, he could try again to be whole when people were watching… but it hadn’t gone the way he’d expected.
He’d taken it too far. Just like always, he’d let his heart get in front of his head, and then he’d been too stubborn to stop charging ahead.
At least until Silvio’s soft hands caught his shaking ones, and reminded him why he’d come here in the first place.
His shoulders sagged. "Hey, Ax! You in there? Earth to Ax. This is the planet Earth calling.”
Oh.
“Is there an... Axton Gunn in there by any chance? If so, I'd really like to-"
“Buh. I’m awake.” Blinking rapidly, Ax centred himself in the present, shaking off the threads of his thoughts. THey were so heavy lately. “Re-entering orbit, dude.”
"Hey. Come on. Let's get you out and get some fresh air, okay? It'll be good for you, I promise."
Axton felt a little queasy about dealing with people after the last couple of nights, and his hesitation showed on his face. He couldn’t stop thinking about the evening before at the tattoo shop. He still felt raw. He still felt tender. He was still worried he’d get defensive, let someone’s vinegar get to him too easily and turn him back into his worst self.
“Ugh… maybe it was a bad idea for me to tag in today. I’m zoned out.” Ax rubbed his face, trying to clear the fog from his eyes and his mind.
"Nope. Not gonna take no for an answer. Sometimes you just gotta work hurt. That's life lately."
That was Dom; Ax couldn’t help but think of how good he looked in his ring gear. Even if this wasn’t the career Dominick had imagined, he sure took to it naturally. Behind him was a typical suburban home in a place called Middle River, Maryland, with about an acre's worth of yard with a white six-foot privacy fence separating the back section from all its surroundings. For a minute he was disoriented. Just how far outside of downtown Baltimore had they come? How long had he been zoned out?
Ax made himself get out of the car, trying to shake off his sluggishness. This, like any other time, was showtime. Time to kick himself into gear.
He straightened out his jacket, tugging his shirt down. “Hunh. Where are we? Seems pretty out of the way…”
"This? This is a buddy-of-mine's house. The training spot is in the back. Come... I'll show you."
The trio trekked across the yard and passed through the gate; it became clear what it was that Dom had brought them to. In the backyard was a small wrestling ring, with a makeshift shed built around it to protect the investment from the elements.
"This is it." Dom spread his arms wide. "We call it the 'yard. Better name still pending of course."
It was honestly the smallest little training ring Ax had ever seen. The thing looked like it was held together with duct tape and hope; the ropes hadn’t been replaced since his Aussie Shepherds were born, and the canvas had a Jackson Pollock’s painting worth of blood and sweat stains caked into it. The three young men practicing in the little space matched the decor.
Despite it all, Axton felt himself smiling. There was something so… wholesome? Was that the word? Something wholesome about it. Something about this place radiated heart--something that he’d been missing lately.
"It ain't much, but what she lacks in grace she makes up for in total obscurity," Dom said.
“Sounds like my first ex,” Ax quipped with a teasing grin. Yeah, he was feeling better.
“No, no… This is exactly where I learned how to wrestle; backyard stuff. This is all SUPER familiar and it feels… Right, ya know? Like… If I’m going to refocus and get back to where I was having fun with this…” Sebastian paused, and Axton could’ve sworn he saw a dark thought cross his mind. It vanished, though, and he relaxed. “Anyways, this is great dude.”
“Yeah,” Axton agreed, a bit of a grin on his face. “This is back to roots, for sure.”
"Yeah, back to roots." Dom sighed. "For me that was like three months ago. But hey, if we want to get better at what we do for a living, then this is the place."
Watching Dom, Ax felt that same feeling the ring itself gave him. Three months or three years, it didn’t matter. This was where he’d built his foundations, and you never forgot your roots.
"Gentlemen, I'd like you to meet a few friends of mine." Dom's ragtag crew of other local independent workers practically lived in this box. "Guys, this is Rob, Mike, and Danny."
“Sup.” Axton offered a lazy salute to accompany his good-natured grin, taking a step forward. “I’m Axton, and this blonde ray of sunshine is Sebastian. Do you guys go easy on newcomers or should I run back to the car for a first aid kit, just in case?”
Danny--a taller redhead with intense blue eyes--snorted slightly, shrugging. “If you get on Rob’s bad side you might need it.”
“Oy.” Rob elbowed him, adjusting the wrap on his hand with a grin. “Dom, back me up. I don’t bite. Not in the ring, anyhow.”
Sebastian waved, enthused as ever, and turned to Dom. “So where do we change? Looking forward to getting started!”
Following Dom’s direction, Ax followed Sebastian back to the makeshift locker room; he was looking forward to this. He could just leave everything else in the background for now and be here, working with new company in a new place. It felt good.
Upon return, he watched Sebastian bound back toward the ropes. Axton himself remained ringside in his boots, feeling a bit out of place in his expensive gear next to the backyard crew.
“Gotta admit this isn’t my usual scene…” Ax paced alongside the ring, giving one of the posts a firm knock with the side of his fist. No splinters. “Looks like it sure is yours though, Dom. How long did you say you guys’ve been kicking around in this box? Three months?”
"Ehh, ever since I met these guys at a local indy promotion, actually. We'd train in the wrestling school on Wednesdays and Saturdays when it was open, but the rest of the week we had this." Dom opens his arms to the ring in front of him. "Jim, our trainer, said if you wanted to get on the show you had to show improvement and you had to prove that you wanted it. This was kinda our way to stand out."
So it was just that, wasn’t it? A literal display of heart. A manifestation of the desire to move forward. To be part of something. To chase that rush.
He could still be part of something. Something good.
“Well... we got a lot of standing out to do for Chaos 100,” Axton said with a grin, hoisting himself up onto the apron. “Alright, boys. This is your court--time to show the SoCal boy how we work around here. Let’s get at this the old-fashioned way.”
Axton was pleasantly surprised to see Dom take the reins as coordinator, starting the entire group with stretches and warm-ups. He’d been hoping for that, honestly. He still remembered their initial conversation, and how Dom had said he wasn’t much of a team player, but right now he was seeing the potential for it.
He didn’t really want to be a ‘team captain’, himself. He wanted friends on the same level. He wanted a new band.
"If it takes 500 dropkicks to make you have a better dropkick," Dom said, "then I'll stand here and take 500 dropkicks."
"But what if it takes 5000?" Axton laughed.
"Then by the time I get up the 4,999th time I had better get hit with a damn good dropkick."
Axton decided to perfect his dropkick by the end of the day.
Goode, Hampton, and Willis; they were all singles competitors with colourful histories, some good, and some bad. Win or lose, they each had a skillset worth being worried about. It was good to be able to work against another trio to get into the flow of it.
Axton, on a deeper level, felt like he was finally connecting with someone.
As the practice wore on, he found it easier to read their cues; he could tell when Sebastian was staggered. He could see when Dom was trying to signal him for a coordinated strike. It felt so good. It had been such a long, long time since he’d been able to build something natural--without stardom or assumptions getting in the way. Best of all, it felt honest and real.
Maybe eventually, these would be the people he could trust.
The match finished when Dom unleashed a massive superkick right underneath the chin of Rob, briefly knocking him unconscious. The four other participants flooded the ring to check on Rob's condition, as well as Dom himself, to help Rob back up to his feet.
A few moments later, the newly coordinated tag team sat together on the apron, knocking back ice water and letting the sweat dry in their hairlines. Seated in the middle, Axton had himself slung over the bottom rope, rubbing his face with his discarded t-shirt. His whole body was sore, but a way that made him feel satisfied and grounded in his own skin. He didn’t remember the last time he’d felt like this, but he wanted to feel it more often. It made the days of feeling out of place in his body feel like a joke of a dream.
“That felt good,” he admitted, craning his head back to stretch his neck. “It was different. I’m so used to working in a gym back in LA. There’s something about doing it this way with you guys that feels… I dunno.”
Should he share what he’d been thinking…? “You hear people talk about ‘heart’ a lot in this game…”
Dom brushed his sweat-sheened hair back and nodded his head.
"I wasn't a big believer in makin' this a career. I just needed the money. But I guess you get addicted to the rush. Ain't nothing like it."
“And you look hella good doing it,” Axton commented with a sagely nod. He could admit to himself freely that he’d stolen a couple looks at Dom’s form during practice, and the muscle in Sebastian’s legs before a jump. What? He was a red-blooded boy.
Sebastian nodded, and Ax tried not to chuckle at how he was still trying to be his energetic self even while obviously wiped.
“Practice makes better after all…” He paused, leaning up against the nearby ring post and throwing his legs up on the apron.
“A gym is all well and good, but there’s no… Camaraderie there? Like… You go to a gym and you don’t give two shits about the people around you. Stuff like this?” He gestures to the empty ring, “THIS is where you learn the type of wrestler you are. Who you like to work with, who you don’t…”
Axton laughed, wiping his mouth on the back of his wrist after a serious gulp of water. “You always find out real fast who you don’t.” God, he already had a list started. He’d gotten a lot of shit for his lackluster first impression, but it was so telling of someone’s self-awareness if they were oblivious to the one they made themselves. The Rockstar already had a few names he knew were going to turn into feuds at the smallest spark. He didn’t mind--if someone made it clear from the get-go that they wanted to play hard, he was more than willing to strike back even harder.
“This just takes me back to days of getting ready for my first backyard show,” Sebastian continued. “I flopped of course, but once you feel that… kick of adrenaline, there’s nothing like it. Find it hard to believe I’ve actually MADE it this far. There’s always been so many rumors of people who come from the same background, and just… never get into a place.”
“Any performance sport is at least half luck getting in, and knowing the right people,” the musician said, tossing Dom another cold bottle of water from the cooler. He thought of the meeting at the coffee shop--playing the part of Dom’s connection.
Dom cracked open the new bottle as he nodded in agreement. “Yeah. Hell, that’s kind of how it is for any business. Depends on who you know.”
Sebastian fell silent, drinking his water thoughtfully. “What I don’t like? Once everyone gets a taste of what it’s like to be out there, they forget how to have fun and do whatever they can to crush all remnants of the like out. Good guys face off against bad guys and that’s all well and good but… Everyone is SO serious in doing it. I started this to have fun, ya know?”
“I feel that.” Axton looked thoughtful for a moment, his brow furrowed. There was a deep ring of truth to that--maybe it was why he’d been received the way he was. While he was playing a game, everyone else was riding high-stakes without a grain of perspective. It was worrying.
“... You know, ever since I hopped on board with Carnage, I’ve noticed that--everyone taking things too seriously.”
He leaned forward, looking back and forth at his two teammates.
“What if we could change that?” He grinned.
“You have an idea,” Dom said. “I have an idea,” Axton confirmed, hopping to his feet.
This was it. The pitch. The idea that had been brewing in his head since he’d met the two of them--something bigger, brighter, flashier. Fun.
“Listen… the three of us? I think we got something going on. This felt good. I think that means something. This is the same feeling I get when I’m writing new lyrics--like something is just… jiving. Not to mention… you guys make me feel like I belong here.”
His grin widening, he hopped down from the apron, turning to face the pair with both hands out and open in invitation.
Trust them.
Trust them not to say no.
“What do you say the three of us do a little more than win a tag match at Chaos? What do you say… we call ourselves a whole new entourage… and bring the goddamn party?”
He held his breath.
“So. Chaos One Hundred, huh? What a time to be alive.”
Axton Gunn--the indie-rock rising star from Los Angeles, California--was sitting on a stone bench in Baltimore, Maryland. He was dressed in Lucky jeans, cuffs rolled at the ankles to show off a pair of black converse lovingly printed with the face of David Bowie from the 1976 movie Labyrinth. He was also sporting his favourite black denim coat over a t-shirt bearing the album art of his latest release, SKULL FRACTURES. A pair of gold-rimmed Ray Bans hid his eyes, but certainly not his smile.
The stone bench also happened to be occupied by two familiar characters--Jim Henson, and Kermit the Frog, lovingly cast in bronze and set eternally in a comfortable, conversational pose.
Axton leaned forward to rest his forearms on his thighs, briefly running a hand back through his sun-bleached blonde hair.
“It feels really cool to be sliding onto the stage right around a Centennial celebration… and I’m not the only one! There’s plenty of other newcomers to Carnage on the docket for the big show. We got myself, my tag pals Sebastian and Dominick, Ahyma, Kat Jones, the Drag Yawn Lady my partner pinned at 99… and even brand new senior talent like Jack Michaels.”
He couldn’t keep the straight face, a shit-eating grin cutting through the façade.
“But I’m getting too excited. We’re here to talk about this three-on-three tag party coming up, right? Me, my guy Seb and my guy Dom, against Eli Goode, Harry Hampton and the relentless one himself, Jon Willis. Now, you dudes are probably wondering why I’m sitting with my main men Mr. Henson and the honourable K. Frog here.”
He looked to the side at the bronze figures, a certain fondness in his eyes.
“These two were really, really good at one thing. They made the world fun. When things felt like they were falling apart, when things got hard, when times got rough… these guys could still make you smile on a bad day. So many of us have all these fond childhood memories of them. Some of us are out here trying to find that Rainbow Connection, you know? I think we owe them a lot. They inspired me to bring that same kind of goodness to the world, too. That’s just one of the reasons I make music--if you’ve ever danced to one of my songs at a party, or even in your underwear with a hairbrush mic in your room… thanks. You’re making it worth it.”
He smiles, looking forward again and removing his shades. His green eyes catch the overcast light.
“Eli, Harry, Jon--I don’t know you guys all that well just yet. But that’s cool! I think in this biz the best way to get to know somebody is to step into the ring with ‘em. That sure is how I feel about my partners right now. We had a great chance to play off each other in the ropes, and really get a feel for the way we work together. Best of all, we did it our own way, and you know what? It was goddamn fun. When I came out here, that’s what I wanted--some new kind of joy, some new adrenaline rush. I think I found that with Sebastian and Dominick. Sorry if that’s corny, guys--you should expect me being a bit sappy now and then. I’m an artist.”
He grinned, winking before going on.
“Eli… you’ve been having a rough time, huh? Things haven’t really been going your way. Who knows, maybe this is gonna be your upswing. I’m rooting for it, pal. I mean, if there’s any show to bring your A-game, this is it--and you got a couple of champs along for the ride, so uh. Don’t goof it up. Harry...”
He laughed, rubbing his face, his shoulders shaking again.
“Your accent is thicker than Cardi B’s ass, and I don’t necessarily mean that as a compliment. I mean it takes me so long to decipher what you’re saying that by the time I figure it out I don’t care anymore. It was definitely a fluke that you beat Dom for that belt, and we’re about to prove it to you, laddie.”
He snickered, scratching his jaw. “But I’m being mean. Hey, Jon. It was super cool chatting with you at the record shop. Gotta admit, I’ve been a fan of your stuff since I started watching Chaos. You’ve got such a solid vibe and a do-or-die style that just gets me pumped for a good match. You live hard like you're about to die. Honestly? Can’t wait to square off against you. I’d be lying if I didn’t think you’re gonna be the highest hurdle, even though you’re like, three inches shorter than me.”
He winks again, sitting back against the stone rest.
“If I ever get a chance to work with you, I’mma jump for it. But right now? Let’s hit those ropes as rivals, baby. I’m one loss and one win in--the perfect balance. So which way are you gonna push me? Doesn’t matter in the long run, because you and me, fam? We’re both pushing up. People aren’t expecting us to bring the fire. But we’re young, dumb, and full of… you know.” He stuck his tongue out. “We’re young volcanoes, as Patrick Stump might put it. And the worst mistake you can make is thinking a volcano is dormant when it’s really about to set off some fireworks.”
Axton leans forward again, almost conspiratory.
“We’re about to set off some really big fireworks. We’re about to bring the fun. And I don’t think anyone’s gonna be ready for what me and my boys are bringing at One Hundred. So… brace yourselves.”
Post by Dom Strife on Oct 11, 2020 22:23:52 GMT -5
"Well, here it is."
I knew I was more than just a little bit apprehensive.
I just hope I didn't sound like it.
My back was pressed against the one thing in this life I could honestly call my own, but like most things in life, that would soon be changing. I didn't want to let on to (what apparently would be) my two new tag-team partners that my beat up old truck and I... yeah... we were on the outs. C$J gave me an ultimatum of sorts... and well...
I had my back leaned against her; my arms folded across my chest. There were a lot of thoughts running laps in my mind, dumping subsequent emotions onto the bonfire of insecurity soaked with flammable anxiety as added fuel... for a while there I didn't even think that they would show... and why should they? How does a kid from White Marsh become friends with a badass with a cavalier attitude and a self-made rockstar from L.A.? I made big promises that we could make 'whatever we needed to be at Chaos 100' work. Frankly I was even a bit embarrassed, but what could I do?
This wrestling thing was turning out to be more and more like the Delivery business. You have no fucking clue how you're going to make it work. You just put in the work the best that you can, and hope that it all works out in the end.
"This is a step away from the 'big city'." The aforementioned badass, Sebastian Hawke, sounded confused as he stepped out of his rental.
"That it is. I'd still lock your doors though," I warned. "It looks like a nice neighborhood, but they'll still jack your radio. Then how would you listen to the new Skull Fractures album?"
"Who says I need a stereo?"
He looked over toward the Rockstar Axton Gunn who was still seated in the passenger side of the car. Gunn's focus was clearly elsewhere; his eyes traced the silver linings of the clouds overhead and for a moment it felt all too familiar to me. Seemed like something I would do. The Axton was so focused that I don't think he even noticed that the car had stopped.
So I walked up and did what any good friend would do: knock on the window and hope it scares the shit out of him.
"Hey, Ax! You in there? Earth to Ax. This is the planet Earth calling. Is there an... Axton Gunn in there by any chance? If so, I'd really like to-"
“Buh. I’m awake.” Dude blinked like he had woken up from a power nap. “Re-entering orbit, dude.”
"Hey. Come on. Let's get you out and get some fresh air, okay? It'll be good for you, I promise."
I could tell that there was something on his mind, but there's a lot of that going around lately. I had heard rumors that there were some things going on between he and... you know what? It's not really my business to say. Plus, there's Twitter. So, yeah. I kinda think everyone already knows, or can at least figure out the details on their own.
Point is... regardless of how Ax felt... I knew that we weren't going to get anywhere close to our collective goal of winning at Chaos 100 if we all had our heads in the clouds.
“Ugh… maybe it was a bad idea for me to tag in today. I’m zoned out.”
"Nope. Not gonna take no for an answer. Sometimes you just gotta work hurt. That's life lately."
I had my new ring gear on, so I was ready to go. The place where I offered for the three of us to train was the house directly behind us; the one that had my old truck parked at the curb in the front. It's a buddy-of-mine's place, or more accurately, his parents place. But out here, not too far from the Baltimore city line actually, stands a real nice suburban neighborhood of the old days. One of those ones that still have those pesky things that the old folks like to call a... "backyard"...
The place had a big white privacy fence around it, mainly 'cause my buddy used to have a dog. (Unfortunately he had to have her put down earlier this year.) Now it was just us, and this was just a place where the half-grown-up kids gathered to do that shameful thing that no one wants to admit in this industry but where a lot of us got our real start.
Ax looked like he had to force himself out of the car, which was fine. I admired his effort and his willingness to push through. This, he would say, like any other time, was showtime. I guess the life of a rockstar isn't as glamorous as I would have thought sometimes.
“Hunh. Where are we? Seems pretty out of the way…”
"This? This is a buddy-of-mine's house. The training spot is in the back. Come... I'll show you."
I remember doing that little swim-motion 'get over here' with my arm to signal to them that the back of the house is where the real magic happens. I ushered them through the fence gate and showed them the thrown-together shed with the wrestling ring wedged inside its thin walls.
"This is it." I said, feeling a scant bit of pride in something I helped build. "We call it the 'yard. Better name still pending of course."
It wasn't the best wrestling ring in the world. Hell, I'd put it down as probably one of the worst. It was definitely used before we collectively bought it. Whatever money we had left went into lumber and nails. But even though it was, and is, by all accounts an eyesore... it also had that 'it' factor about it. Like it just felt like home to me... I guess because of all of the hours I spent in this place from conception to design to building it and eventually practicing in it.
It looked like a piece of shit.
But it was our piece of shit.
Sebastian’s eyes lit up like a kids on Christmas morning. (Definitely not the reaction I was expecting.) He rubbed his hands together.
“THIS is more like it!”
"It ain't much, but what she lacks in grace she makes up for in total obscurity," I replied.
“Sounds like my first ex,” Ax joked.
Sebastian dropped his bag.
“No, no… This is exactly where I learned how to wrestle; backyard stuff. This is all SUPER familiar and it feels… Right, ya know? Like… If I’m going to refocus and get back to where I was having fun with this…” A dark look came over his eyes as he picked his bag back up off the ground. “Anyways, this is great dude.”
“Yeah,” Axton said, “This is back to roots, for sure.”
"Yeah, back to roots." I replied with a sigh. "For me that was like three months ago. But hey, if we want to get better at what we do for a living, then this is the place."
There wasn't anything flashy or spectacular about this place, no; if anything the smaller size of the ring and the low height of the ceiling were hindrances... but even that seemed beneficial in its own way. Training sessions seemed personal and, to some degree, intimate. There were no big distractions to break one's focus and typically no interviewers hanging off one's every word. (Except that one time.) There was only one reason to be here and only one motivation that would justify spending so much of one's time here.
You came here to be a better wrestler. You left here a better wrestler.
"Gentlemen, I'd like you to meet a few friends of mine." I said to Seb and Ax, as my ragtag crew of other local independent workers greeted us at the entrance of the shed. "Guys, this is Rob, Mike, and Danny."
“Sup.” Axton was the first to greet them. “I’m Axton, and this blonde ray of sunshine is Sebastian. Do you guys go easy on newcomers or should I run back to the car for a first aid kit, just in case?”
“If you get on Rob’s bad side you might need it," Danny replied, half-jokingly.
“Oy.” Rob gave Danny a little elbow shiv. “Dom, back me up. I don’t bite. Not in the ring, anyhow.”
Sebastian offered his greeting and replied. “So where do we change? Looking forward to getting started!”
I pointed in the direction of the shower curtain that we had hung up in the back corner, not knowing that both Sebsatian and Ax were going to try to occupy that infinitesimally small space together like all of the mass of the singularity at the center of a black hole... but hey... who am I to judge? I had kind of figured out by that point that there were some things going on between my partners beyond the ring and, you know what? If I had the chance I'd take Iz back in that corner and-
Ahem. Anywho, when they came back they looked ready to put some work in... or as I've heard the term is these days: put the 'sweat equity' in. Both of their eyes were locked onto the ring and to the task at hand, so...
I counted that as a win regardless.
“Gotta admit this isn’t my usual scene…” Ax paced around and eventually ended up like punching one of the ring posts or something. Whatever works I guess. “Looks like it sure is yours though, Dom. How long have you guys been kicking around in this box?”
"Ehh, ever since I met these guys at a local indy promotion, actually. We'd train in the wrestling school on Wednesdays and Saturdays when it was open, but the rest of the week we had this." I said referring to the pile of steel and wood and thin padding that we called a ring. "Jim, our trainer, said if you wanted to get on the show you had to show improvement and you had to prove that you wanted it. This was kinda our way to stand out."
“Well, we got a lot of standing out to do for Chaos 100,” Axton reminded me. “Alright, boys. This is your court--time to show the SoCal boy how we work around here. Let’s get at this the old-fashioned way.”
It was the perfect setup as far as Chaos 100 practice was concerned. We could work three-on-three; with Rob, Mike, and Danny as the stand-ins for Goode, Hampton, and Willis. Yet instead of running through a tag match to start, I thought it would be a good idea to get the entire group with stretches and warm-ups first. Only after everyone was sufficiently limber would I get us all started back on the basics.
"If it takes 500 dropkicks to make you have a better dropkick," I said, "then I'll stand here and take 500 dropkicks."
"But what if it takes 5000?" Axton asked with a smirk.
"Then by the time I get up the 4,999th time I had better get hit with a damn good dropkick."
That was the philosophy that I believed in and was trying to sell; not just to my Indy friends, but to Sebastian and Axton as well. By the time we were ready to run through a simulated match and work on tag-team spots everyone in that backyard box was physically and mentally exhausted, and that was exactly the way it was going to be when the real challenge came on Sunday.
Nothing about being in Carnage Wrestling was easy so far, and nor should it have been. There were no 'miles' to be taken freely. No one in the locker room would give anyone a fraction of an inch. Every spot, every opportunity, every moment seemed like they needed to be fought for and earned the hard way. It was only a matter of respect to Hampton, Willis, and Eli Goode that we train the exact same way that they expect to be treated: as if all six-men in our upcoming match would be fighting for our lives.
Chemistry is something that cannot be created in any other way, than to spend the time. But as the hours progressed, I noticed that Gunn, Hawke, and I found ourselves becoming more and more comfortable tagging each other in to this match. We started to really get who we should tag and when... and started to know not only our own limits but the limits of the people we would be fighting alongside with, too.
The match finished when I took Robs head off with a Thunderstrike superkick, knocking him out cold unintentionally. Everyone else flooded the ring to check on Rob's condition, but I made sure to help Rob back up to his feet myself and apologize.
As we were all cooling off, Mike and Danny took Rob back into the house. The three of us sat together on the apron, gulping ice water. Seated in the middle, Axton had laid across the bottom rope like a hammock.
“That felt good,” Ax with his head drooped back. “It was different. I’m so used to working in a gym back in LA. There’s something about doing it this way with you guys that feels… I dunno. You hear people talk about ‘heart’ a lot in this game…”
"I wasn't a big believer in makin' this a career," I admitted. "I just needed the money. But I guess you get addicted to the rush. Ain't nothing like it."
“And you look hella good doing it,” I swear is what he said to me. And you know what? I like compliments just as much as the next guy.
Sebastian nodded at us. “Practice makes better after all…” He paused, draped across the far side of the same apron with his back against the post. “A gym is all well and good, but there’s no… Camaraderie there? Like… You go to a gym and you don’t give two shits about the people around you. Stuff like this?” He gestures to the empty ring, “THIS is where you learn the type of wrestler you are. Who you like to work with, who you don’t…”
Axton laughed. “You always find out real fast who you don’t.”
“This just takes me back to days of getting ready for my first backyard show,” Sebastian continued. “I flopped of course, but once you feel that… kick of adrenaline, there’s nothing like it. Find it hard to believe I’ve actually MADE it this far. There’s always been so many rumors of people who come from the same background, and just… never get into a place.”
“Any performance sport is at least half luck getting in, and knowing the right people,” Ax replied as he tossed me a bottle of water from the cooler.
“Yeah. Hell, that’s kind of how it is for any business." I said. "Depends on who you know.”
Sebastian went quiet for a brief moment, but then finally replied. “What I don’t like? Once everyone gets a taste of what it’s like to be out there, they forget how to have fun and do whatever they can to crush all remnants of the like out. Good guys face off against bad guys and that’s all well and good but… Everyone is SO serious in doing it. I started this to have fun, ya know?”
“I feel that.” Axton looked thoughtful for a moment, his brow furrowed like an angry person. “... You know, ever since I hopped on board with Carnage, I’ve noticed that--everyone taking things too seriously.”
He leaned forward, looking back and forth at his two teammates.
“What if we could change that?”
“You have an idea?" I asked.
“I have an idea,” Ax confirmed as he jumped to his feet. “Listen… the three of us? I think we got something going on. This felt good. I think that means something. This is the same feeling I get when I’m writing new lyrics--like something is just… jiving. Not to mention… you guys make me feel like I belong here.”
His grin widening, he turned to face us with hands out and open in invitation.
“What do you say the three of us do a little more than win a tag match at Chaos? What do you say… we call ourselves a whole new entourage… and bring the goddamn party?”
Cars pass as I stand out here with my back against the glass. No, it's not my truck anymore. I couldn't bring it. If C$J saw that I still had it, that I was still driving it around and doing deliveries with it... who knows what would happen to my fledgling career?
My back's pressed against the glass of the entrance doors of the Royal Farms arena. There's never really a quiet night in downtown Baltimore, cause like most cities this one's got a bit of a sleep disorder. But there are less cars, less car horns due to the lack of overall congestion on the street. So I guess this is as peaceful and serene as it gets here. I guess there are parts of me that wouldn't know what peace and serenity really were.
Because of the time of night I'm afforded the ability to set up a little camera facing both myself and the edifice behind me with only a slight fear that it might be stolen.
"As you can see around me I'm out in the open here in my hometown. Tomorrow night, I'm going to be located inside this building, the Royal Farms arena, celebrating Carnage Wrestling's 100th episode of Chaos in grand fashion along with the folks who made it all possible just to get this federation that far..."
I rub my nose with my wrist, mainly due to the fall chill in the air affecting me.
"And above all else, I'm grateful. I really am... just to be here. I know that I'm a bit cliche. But I want the people of Baltimore to know... I want the people in Carnage Wrestling to know that I'm not lost on this moment. To the outsider, I can see how a lot of people would focus more on Ken Davison vs. Jack Michaels or Kyra Johnson vs. Mac Bane. There's so many matches on this card and when you get all the way down to the six-man tag the narrative becomes almost over-simplified. There's three of us on one side, Ax, Sebastian, and Myself who are the 'new kids on the block' so to speak and on the other, there's this mixed bag of two mainstays and Jon Willis who are all desperate for the win."
I turn and look up at the illuminated Royal Farms arena sign above the door.
"And 'simple' isn't necessarily 'bad'. Some of the best things in life are basic. But I know when I enter this building tomorrow night that I won't be walking in through these doors like the fan I was a few months ago. I'm going to be walking through the back with the other wrestlers. I'm going to suit up in the locker room and I'm going to meet up with my partners and eventually walk out to that ring when our music is played. I know we won't be at full capacity but I know there'll be people in the stands and plenty more watching on the Carnage Network live stream at home. And I know when I step into this building that I'm going to have to look Axton and Sebastian in the eyes, and eventually, I'm going to have to look Eli Goode and Jonathan Willis and Harry Hampton in the eyes, too."
I turn my eyes back toward the camera that's perched on the tripod.
"It's a matter of pride. No matter how anyone wants to slice it. And when I walk into THIS building tomorrow night and LOOK these people in the EYES I want them to KNOW that I walked into this arena that night MEANING BUSINESS. This is no knock on Mr. Relentless, Paragon's Prodigal Son, or the man who single-handedly stopped me from becoming the first CW Chaos Champion. I know that as true as I'm saying these words now that all three of you have your own reasons for walking out of this place tomorrow night victorious and they're all perfectly good and valid. But I want the three of you to know, collectively, that the kiddie gloves are off... that what you're walking into tomorrow night is like walking the train tracks with your earbuds in and a blindfold on."
"YOU'RE NOT GONNA KNOW WHAT HIT YA-" I shout into the camera lens, leaning down as if I'm coming at them right here and now. "-but at least you three have been warned. Jon, I know you got your own problems bud. Doesn't everybody though? You want to call me out to the mall to show me that you're all-in, balls-out with your boiled filets and your super green salads. Look man, I came from a place where the willingness to train and better yourself was merely the prerequisite to being welcomed there... Carnage is so much worse... I'm not sure what you wanted from me the other day... a cookie? No, that would've ruined your diet. You know what I'm on a diet of? Headlocks. Hammerlocks. Suplexes. Dropkicks. I've been nowhere close to where I've needed to be and I've still got a long way to go, but... that shit that happened against Broken Heart? That shit'll NEVER happen again! You know why? Because it was embarrassing, Jon. And I'm fucking tired of being embarrassed, especially in my own hometown."
I wipe my mouth off on my jacket sleeve.
"I want to be something. I want to be respected. I want to know when I'm cashing in the Carnage checks that I'm not just taking C$J's money to be someone else's punching bag. I don't want to end up like Eli Goode, no offense. I don't want to be the forgotten member of something that people were happy to see go in the first place. That's a hell of a legacy to leave and it's just not the one I want for myself. With guys like Ax and Sea Bass next to me? I gotta raise that bar. I can't afford to be a protege or a sidekick or, much worse, and afterthought. Eli Goode is so damn bland and so damn bad that I don't think that a win for him at Chaos 100 would make anyone so damn care about him anymore. But hey, that's not gonna stop ya from trying, isn't it Eli? You just never were that Damn Goode, and that's just too Damn Bad."
"Which leaves me to you, Harry." I smirk and try my best not to chuckle... I just can't help but to though. "If yae had more 'pull' yaed have helped me, yah? Save it, Harry. I gave you respect from the first time we fought, all the way to the third... and yeah, you got to be something that I'll never get to be, because of you. But do you know what, Harry? All of the respect aside, I have to tell yae that you're full of excuses. You won the Chaos belt and what did you do with it? Shit, Harry, you should be defending the Chaos title tomorrow night, not stuck right back in the same situation you were in before. But do you know what, Harry? As it turns out, it's not going to matter much anyway. Because tomorrow night, I'm going to do to you what I should've done that night that I tried to poke you in the eye."
"I'm going to kick your teeth down your throat."
Last Edit: Oct 11, 2020 22:26:44 GMT -5 by Dom Strife