Post by Deleted on Jul 23, 2020 7:48:23 GMT -5
To the fallen,
First, this might get a little rambly so I’m sorry.
I’m writing this just a few hours after the show. My mom didn’t attend but she watched thru a stream and now we’re driving back home.
Anyway…
This isn’t meant to discuss my first career victory or what transpired earlier - more about that later. It’s tough enough to type into a word doc on the phone without getting into that.
This is going to seem like it is directed at Alex Winter. It really isn’t. If Alex lets this define him, that’s on him. When I say fallen, I mean those affected by someone like Alex Winter. I can’t really get into it, I’m not so brave but I think I get it. I understand that maybe I have the opportunity to fight for those who can’t. If that seems pretentious, I’m super sorry again.
Alex, he lashed out against me. He claimed that I leveled false accusations at him. If I did, I would be the first to apologize. The reality is there is only one thing that he proved in the last two weeks and that he is a misogynist. Everything else? Can’t substantiate any of that. If Alex chose to look inward, he would see that his beliefs do however lend credence to many negative character traits.
I don’t know what his reaction will be but I figure I should get out ahead of things.
I work very hard for my opportunity here at Carnage Wrestling. I use nearly every bit of salary to get back here every show. And I think I really like this sport despite it never giving me much of a reason to. I don’t expect you to feel sorry for me on that.
...sorry I warned you, just briefly, if Alex you decide to read this and you got this far - I am so sorry for your loss. It seems to have shaped your worldview for the worse. But you are what I say you are and not only that, you seem to be proud of it despite your defiance.
I’m not perfect. I haven’t always been the best ally. And sometimes I feel confused about what I feel.
I don’t expect you to change from a simple letter. Because this isn’t about you. You “apologized” after all of this went down and well, I don’t forgive you. And trust me, Alex, you’ll never find absolution from the dead because they aren’t listening.
That’s all.
Thanks,
Adrienne
PS - Thank you to those who believe in me - even just a little. To those who have reached out, I don’t have much in the way of an answer but I’ll do my best to reply. Please don’t be mad if there is a delay, this is new to me.