Post by Alex Winter on Jul 28, 2020 13:04:35 GMT -5
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“The whole world can become the enemy when you lose what you love.” - Kristina McMorris
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“Those we love don’t go away, they walk beside us everyday. Unseen, unheard, but always near, still loved, still missed and very dear.” - Anonymous
Broken Emotions
Quebec, Canada
July 18th, 2005
Winter Residence
It had been a week now since the devastating murder of Alex Winter’s sister Jessica Winter, and her girlfriend Monica Williams. A sixteen year old Alex had to witness his sister die in his arms. That’s not easy for anyone to have to deal with, so a young lad whose parents were hardly around, it was a lot harder on him. At a time like this, all Alex needed was the love of his parents. Love to them though, was giving him a credit card and letting him get whatever he wanted. He just wanted a hug right now, but his parents weren’t like that, even though their daughter had just died. Instead they had decided to do what they always did, their own thing.
Alex Winter was sat on the edge of his emperor sized bed. His bedroom is bigger than a tennis court. Well probably an exaggeration, but you get the point that his bedroom is massive. He had a framed picture of his sister in his hands, he was clearly feeling mentally destroyed, as he bleeds the salt of his soul as it pours from his eyes. The grip on the framed picture of his sister was extremely tight, tight enough that the glass breaks, cutting his finger open. He just sits there, looking at the blood drip from his finger, the pain numbed by the emotions he was feeling.
Eventually he gets to his feet, feeling a little faint from the blood loss. He looks onto the floor and sees the small puddle of blood. Alex falls to his knees having a flashback to him holding his sister in his arms.
“I… I… Love you.” Jessica says before she took her last breath.
“Jess, no… Please, don’t leave me alone.” Alex shouted, snapping back to reality.
Alex was now extremely distraught as the tears became heavier than before. The tears spilt over and flowed down his face like a river escaping a dam. He was clearly not in a good place right now as he manages to get to his feet once again. The blood was still dripping from his finger as he headed out of the room. Walking along the huge landing passing a couple of doors, Alex finally walks into the bathroom. He turns on the cold tap of the basin, as he looks into the mirror. It wasn’t a pretty site that was looking back at him in the mirror, but no one would look pretty in this state.
“HOLY FUCK BALLS!!!” He said as he placed his finger under the cold water.
Looking down into the wash basin, all he could see was the red thick blood swirling around before running down the sinkhole. Once he’d cleaned the cut and dried it, he grabbed a medical kit from the bathroom cabinet. Looking through it, he pulls out several different things before getting the plasters he needed. Once Alex had put a plaster on the cut on his middle finger on his left hand. He then put everything back in the medical kit before placing it back into the bathroom cabinet.
“Is this what it really has come down to?” He asks himself as he looks into the mirror.
Letting out a sigh, he places his right hand under the cold tap that was still running and splashes the water on his face. It was as if he was trying to cleanse himself as he wiped the tears away. Once he’d washed the visible emotions from his face, he turned the cold tap off, once again looking at himself in the mirror. What he saw looking back at him was someone with broken emotions. This wasn’t the true Alex Winter, the Alex Winter his sister loved, the Alex Winter who was always the life and soul of the party.
“You got this Alex!” He rubbed his eyes frantically not believing what he saw in the mirror.
Standing there in the mirror to his left was his sister Jessica. It was her voice he’d just heard. He finally notices that once the blurred vision from rubbing his eyes had gone, and he had focused on the mirror.
“Jessica.” Alex said a little startled and worried he was going mad.
“Ssh!” Jessica replied in a soft and sincere tone. “I don’t want you to walk around upset and emotional. I want you to go out there and be Alex Winter, you got your whole life ahead of you. Go and live it, go out there and do what you got to do.”
It’s just then that he feels the warmth as if someone is hugging him. Alex smiles, this is just what he needed, to be held. He knew that Jessica was dead but she would always be inside his heart and mind.
“Thank you Jess. I promise that whatever I do, I’ll do it my way. I love…” Just as he was about to say that he was interrupted.
BANG! BANG! BANG!
“What are you doing in my bathroom?” The deep voice of a man asks.
Alex heads out of the bathroom to be greeted by an angry looking man. Glancing over his shoulder back into the bathroom, Alex made sure everything was as it was when he went in.
“I was in a rush to clean the cut on my finger dad.” The tone of Alex and body language showed he was weary of his dad.
“You need to sort out your sister's funeral since the parents of her... Well, um, her… Well you know.” Alex’s dad even now wasn’t fond of saying it.
“Jessica’s girlfriend Monica. Jessica was a lesbian dad. I don’t know why you can’t accept it.” Alex’s tone was now showing he was annoyed with his dad.
“Shut your dirty mouth right now boy, do you hear me?” His dad steps forward as Alex backs away.
“NO! How about you shut your homophobic mouth. Jessica is your daughter and she was who she was. Wasn’t it enough for her getting attacked and abused by others for who she was? You never accepted her, you call yourself her father, more like a piece of shit like the others who couldn’t accept her.” The nostrils of Alex flare as he stares at his dad enraged at him.
Without warning, Alex’s dad throws a punch at him, only for Alex to move to the side so his dad connects with the wall. Looking at him still angry, Alex just shakes his head, very disappointed in his dad.
“I’m not going to fight you, but I’m damn well not going to let you hit me either. I promise you now, one more bad word about Jessica and Monica. I’ll not only fight you, but I will end you. Look around you, everything you have, it’ll be gone, of that I promise you.” Alex was extremely angry and wasn’t going to stand for it.
“You won’t do that! You’ll have nothing!” His dad retorts back holding his fist in pain.
“I’ll be able to survive. Where as you, you’ll be destroyed, broken and no more… So try me!” Alex was full of hatred for his dad.
“Whatever! Just talk to the parents and sort out Jessica’s funeral, I have business to attend to.” With that Alex’s dad storms into the bathroom, slamming the door behind him.
As he walked back to his room, Alex mouthed the word ‘Asshole’ at his dad. Alex was just glad that punch didn’t connect and more. Time and time again his dad had got away with it. Jess wasn't here to stop Alex doing something about it now, and as Alex promised earlier, whatever he did, he’d do it his way.
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“Think of the haters in your life as sandpaper. They’ll scratch you up time and time again but in the end, you’re polished and spotless while they end up useless.” - Anonymous
Winter Is Goode
Baltimore, Maryland
The Carnage Arena
July 27th, 2020
The Carnage Arena was silent and empty, well not totally empty. “The Wild Card” Alex Winter was in the ring. He was sitting on top of one of the turnbuckles and was faced so he was looking up the ramp. Alex was wearing the most up to date Jordan sneakers, along with his Los Angeles Lakers basketball shorts and vest. He looked more like he was a basketball player than a wrestler, either way he would’ve said he was the best.
“As you can see, I’m here in The Carnage Arena. I needed somewhere to go that I felt comfortable and at home. The most comfortable I feel is being inside a wrestling ring. I’ve had Titles and from what I’ve seen, so has Eli Goode. There is one difference though, the difference being they were when I wasn’t here. Now that I’m here, you are as likely to win a Title as you are likely to win a match. Even my good pal Johnny Vegas would get a win in his column against you Eli.”
Alex shakes his head before jumping down from the turnbuckle and just standing there with his back leaning against it.
“Standing here in the ring, I’m looking up that ramp and knowing that it doesn’t matter who walks down there, I am better, I am the next big thing here in Carnage and I will get what I want, one way or another. Eli you may well have been Rookie of the Year in two thousand and eighteen, but what have you done since then?”
Pausing for a moment, it was as if Alex was waiting for a response.
“It doesn’t matter to me what you’ve done since then. You could be Carnage Tag Team Champion, Baltimore City Champion, Ultraviolent Champion or even World Champion.
Wait!!!
Let’s stop right there for a moment. Carnage World Champion. That’s almost funny thinking you are good enough to be World Champion. It’s just as shocking that you managed to win the other Titles to be honest. I’m guessing everyone else had the night off when that happened so you won by default right?”
Now starting to walk around the ring, Alex looks around the empty Carnage Arena and chuckles to himself.
“Looking around this empty Arena was probably pretty much how it was when you actually won the titles you did. I see that you held each Title once, well except the World Champion Title obviously. Guessing that was six nights off for everyone else when that happened. You don’t seem all that intelligent, so that works out for each time you won them and lost them.
Eli, it doesn’t matter what you do or try. All the time I am here in Carnage Wrestling, you won’t ever be the top guy. I’m better than you, and anyone else here in Carnage Wrestling. I already know you are going to say ‘Well you lost in your debut.’ You’d be right to say that, but I only lost because of Steve Matthews.
IT WAS ALL HIS FAULT!!!”
Having to calm down for a moment, Alex stops walking around the ring and ends up rolling out of the ring. He heads over and sits in Johnny Vegas’ chair and puts his feet up on the table.
“Just had to make myself comfortable, after all I’m going to be here in Carnage Wrestling for a long time. It doesn’t matter who I have to go through, but one day I will be a Champion here in Carnage. Unlike yourself, the Arena will be full and everyone will turn up to see me topple the so called Champion. I’m the greatest thing ever to step foot here in Carnage, whether that be the past, present or future. Also shout out to the man himself Johnny Vegas for having a comfy as hell chair.
Anyway, back to business. The business of me being the greatest of all time. It’s clear to see that a lot of people hate me here in Carnage and even out of it to be honest, but that doesn’t matter at all. Whether someone likes me or not, I am going to do what I want and get what I want, sacrificing anyone I have to along the way. Whatever I do, I do for me and will always have my reasons for it.
Something else I’ve noticed too is how damn short you are. It’s as if you are Carnage Wrestling’s Leprechaun. Maybe you can use the luck of the Leprechaun and fuck off back to the end of the rainbow. Well if you are lucky enough to leave the Carnage Arena on your own free will by the time I’m done.”
Running his hand through his hair, Alex felt good right now. He was oozing with confidence and there was nothing that would stop that.
“So yeah, let's get back to the fact that you are a short piece of shit. It’s kind of funny, that you think you’ll be able to hit the Goode Bye on anyone other than another Leprechaun. Maybe I should invest in Leprechaun Wrestling, I may even feel sorry for you and make you Leprechaun Champion of the Rainbow World. I can just see it now, Eli Goode is LCRW Champion. Even have Leprechaun Wrestling sponsored by Lucky Charms. It’s the only way you’ll ever hold a Title again, so feel free to get in touch once you’ve recovered from the beating I give you.
“Self-confidence is the first requisite to great undertakings.” - Samuel Johnson “Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence.” - Helen Keller “Your success will be determined by your own confidence and fortitude.” - Michelle Obama “Just be yourself. Let people see the real, imperfect, flawed, quirky, weird, beautiful, and magical person that you are.” - Mandy Hale
Eli’s Apartment Baltimore, MD July 27, 2020 6:40 PM
Eli looks intently at his phone. He taps his fingertips against the opposite hand’s fingertips. He looks over at Jude who sits looking up at him. Eli lets out a sigh.
“I’m guessing I should be making the call now, right? Like, I know that he may or may not answer the phone, but I’ve gotta check anyway, right?”
He rubs his hands through his hair. He reaches out for the phone. He quickly recoils his hand and looks back at Jude.
“See, what if he doesn’t want to hear from me? I mean, the last time we spoke we weren’t exactly on the same side. I’d say we downright hated me, but that’s just my opinion honestly. I don’t know what you think.”
Jude looks at Eli with his tongue out. He breathes heavily. He pulls the tongue back into his mouth and walks over to Eli. He places his head under Eli’s hand trying to get Eli to rub his head. Eli chuckles and starts to rub Jude’s head. Eli places his other hand on Jude’s cheek and scratches his cheek.
“You’re right buddy. I need to relax about all of this. It’s just a simple phone call. It’s not like anything is going to be changing after this call. I’m just going to be clearing the air. Just making sure that we’re going to be on the same side. We both have a common ally, and we both need to make sure we understand each other. You’re right. Ok, I’m gonna make the call.”
He finishes rubbing Jude and exhales. He reaches for his phone and lifts it. He taps a number on his phone and waits as the phone rings. After a few seconds, he smiles to himself.
“Hey Mac, it’s Eli. Yeah, I’ve been meaning to talk to you for a while. You see, you and Amber have gotten closer, and I was thinking that we needed to clear the air. You see, I haven’t been the greatest person to you. I’d say I was trying to get ahead of you through a smear like campaign when we first met. I understand that I wasn’t great towards you, and I wanted to smooth that over. I wanted to have a face-to-face conversation. I hope that we can have that talk. Thanks.”
He hangs up the phone and looks over to Jude. Jude tilts his head. Eli smiles a bit.
“Ok, so I was sent to voicemail, but I’m guessing that he’s super busy right now. He can call me back if he agrees with the message. I mean, he’s a laid back guy, right?”
Jude grimaces as best a dog can. Eli opens his arms up and opens his mouth a little bit.
“Wha-What? I’m doing the best I can right now. I can’t force him to answer the phone. If I could do that, I’d probably be a superhero right now. But, I can’t force everything right now. Like, I mean, I can’t force Kyra to see me as a friend anymore. If, if she wants to see me only as her opponent; then, she can. I’m not going to force her to see me as her friend. I would if I could. I want her to see me as an ally and not as her enemy.”
Eli crosses his arms and looks out the window. He exhales and gently kicks his foot against the floor. Jude walks up to Eli.
“I know buddy. It’s hard to be unliked by your friends. I still got Amber and you. Jack too, but he’s focused on trying to get his family back together. Hell, he’s got more to work to do than I do. It’s funny, you know. People were more focused on how Kyra and Amber felt about what Jack did, and no one asked me.”
Eli squats down and starts rubbing Jude’s cheeks again.
“I tried to let him get over what he needed to get over, but that’s just because it didn’t matter what I would say to him. He’d have done it anyway. After seeing him look weak, I couldn’t stand on the sidelines, but I was forced to. Jack hurt me too. I thought I was a confidant to him, but it appears I was just like everyone else in his life. I was just another nobody to him. Now, I’m a nobody to Kyra. Amber still cares, but I want her to focus on defending her title and being with Mac.”
Eli sighs and stops rubbing Jude. He lowers his head. Jude pushes his nose against Eli’s head. Eli lifts his head. His eyes are red with slight tears appearing in his eyes. He weakly smiles at his dog. He releases a breath and a tear falls down his face.
“Yeah bud, Paragon is truly gone. Just like that sign from a few weeks ago said. We tried to stick together, but there’s only so much you can do. I wanted us to stay together, but it appears without Jack we’re nothing. Now, Amber continues to carry this company. Kyra continues to be a great champion. Mac is a great person to have by your side, and then there’s me. The guy that tries too hard to keep the family together it appears.”
Jude moves towards Eli’s chest and lays his head on Eli’s chest. Eli hugs his dog. He chuckles as a few tears roll down his face.
“Thanks, bud. I know you’ll always be by my side.”
Eli rubs Jude’s back. He hears his phone vibrates. He looks over at it with a worried expression on his face. He lifts it and sees Mac Bane’s name appear. He looks back at Jude nudges Eli’s leg. Eli takes in a deep breath and answers the phone.
“Hello? Hey Mac, I honestly didn’t expect you to get back to me. I understand that you’re probably busy right now, but as I said in the message, I hope that we could meet face-to-face in someway to talk. I think that I…”
He stops listening to Mac speak. He smiles a bit and nods.
“Yeah, great. Yeah, I’m looking forward to that. Thanks, man. I promise that I’ll be on my best behavior. Yeah, see you later man.”
He hangs up and places the phone back on the table. Jude looks up at Eli wagging his tail. Eli chuckles and looks down at Jude.
“Well, buddy, that went well. Haha, looks like we’re going to be having that talk. You’re a great motivational speaker you know. You should go on tour.”
Jude barks in excitement. Eli squats and rubs Jude’s neck.
“Now, who wants a bath?”
Jude whines and starts backing up. Eli tilts his head and smiles.
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“It’s been a while folks. The last match I had was at Underground: Redemption. There, I achieved my redemption. I beat Zephyr Quinn. I became the number one contender for Kyra Johnson’s UltraViolent Championship. Luckily, I was able to rest my shoulder. Now, my shoulder is back at one hundred percent. I can finally fight without having to worry if my arm’s going to pop out its socket. I can get back in the ring and prove why I’m the number one contender for Kyra’s championship.
But, before we can get to that match, I have another match to worry about. Yes, I have to worry about a snot-nosed brat that only cares about himself. A man who will blame every mistake he makes on other people and not himself. A man that honestly thinks Johnny Vegas cares about him more than me. Yeah, I’m going up against Alex Winter.
Alex, I saw your tag team match. You’re a great competitor. The only problem I saw was your inability to work as a teammate. If you would’ve changed that, you might’ve won the match. Now, I see you blaming your loss on the fact that three people were fighting against you. But you’re still a great fighter. I’m not going to deny someone’s ability in the ring; however, you will. In fact, you’ll take everything that I’ve accomplished in Carnage and bastardize it. You’ve taken what makes me great and turn it against me. I’m talking about everything you’ve said to me on Twitter. Yeah, I may be mature enough to ignore everything you say, but I still read it. I see it, I digest it, and I use it as wood for the fire inside of me. You’ve made me want to turn off the nice guy part of my brain and turn back on the crazy side of it. But, I know what happens when I do that. I know the chaos that ensues when that happens. So no, I’m not going to stoop down to your level. No, I’m going to show you that I’m the bigger man in this match. I’m going to show you how to treat people in the ring.
Alex, I respect you as a wrestler, but as a person, I despise you. So, at Chaos, I’m going to treat you like the trash that you are. I’m going to use my entire arsenal against you. I’m going to make sure that you feel every kick, every punch, and every high-flying move I do to you. You can call me shrimpy all day on Twitter, but in the end, your words won’t matter. Words can only go so far in wrestling. At Chaos, I’m going to make you feel a different type of pain. I’m going to take all of your words and use them against me. I’m going to make the phrase, “Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me,” real. Because your words don’t hurt me.
You’re not the first person to take issue with my height. You won’t be the last person either. I’ve had to live with that fact, and I’ve gotten over it. My in-ring work has risen me above my height. Your mouth isn’t going to be doing shit for you. Sure, you may make waves with your “hot takes” on wrestlers, but they’ll all be hollow when you get in the ring with them. You lost your first match because you couldn’t get on the same page as your partner. If you keep making enemies, you’ll never make it far in this business. You need allies, and I’m glad I have some.
Sure, a person I consider an ally thinks of me as their enemy now, but I know that I can turn that around. I know that no matter how much adversity is in our way; she’ll understand that I’m her friend, and I’ll always be her friend. She can treat me like garbage all she wants, but that’ll never stop me. She’s acting this way because she believes certain people gave up on her. That people overlooked her, but I did none of that. I always thought of her as a strong competitor that could defeat anyone with an arm tied behind her back. Hell, she could beat you with her eyes closed.
Alex, you’re all talk and no substance. At Chaos, you’re going to see that everything you’ve said on Twitter about me is wrong. You’re going to understand that sometimes you need to keep your mouth shut. I’m going to make sure you understand the importance of being humble. Once you understand that, maybe you’ll accomplish great things in Carnage Wrestling. Until then, you need to shut your damn mouth and get ready for a beating.
Alex, you don’t stand a chance at Chaos because I’m simply… That Damn Goode.”